clown

you take things easily as for now, you'll know how serious i am as you see a side of of me you've never seen before... never thought it existed.... i always joke around you because i love to see you smile, it's like i'm your private clown... i always hope and pray that you are the one... i'm in a situation like a lonely child playing alone in a deserted playground and an empty swing beside of me... i need company, i'm not greedy, i just want you.... was that too much i'm asking for...?as time slowly consuming my hopes began to grow... i watered it down with my strength and obsessive efforts... that's the only things that keeps me going for now.... breath in and breath out... can you feel me? because i'm almost there.....

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all my life i've been waiting for you...and all this while you've been ignoring me.. i cant believe im actually punishing myself with all the hinting, the teasing, but then again is it really worth for me to confess straight to you and just hope for the best.. you never seems to realize, or are you actually pretending you do not understand all these times.. im not trying to pull off a drama, not a Shakespeare, this is reality, it's like one of a great chapters in my life.. we've known each other for the past 4 years... i'm so ashamed all these while i've never taken the opportunity to get to know you closer... perhaps maybe i was too late, but it's better late than never... somehow im going to confess, i'm going to strike with one set gunshot of lines and sentences, every single things that reminiscent me, right through your heart, im going to leave a mark, i'll make you understand.....